life is a boredom . suspended on Thursday , going back school tomorrow . last night ton with kiat , boy , shy , sam , eric ,min , ting hui and trisha . slacked at my house first , some was playing mahjong while some playing xbox . then laster went simei park slack . Day past so slowly without you , night passes so fast when i am thinking of you .

I sit here in sorrow, wishing I could hold you. I've realized that I've tried to replace you over and over since I made the foolish decision to leave you. But, no one can make me laugh and smile like you do. You are the only one that ever made me so happy. No one could ever take your place. I feel as if my soul has stolen my heart and left me to cry myself to sleep each and every night with guilt in my heart of how I hurt you. I guess you just don't realize what you have until it's gone. I was so stupid to leave you. I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry and I beg with every ounce of my soul please forgive me .

i pass every day with boredom while you are there enjoying yourself . no one know my heart is bleeding so profusely as i walk this path alone . everyone says you change . did you really change ? if its a yes , hope you are changing better and not to a person whom everyone dislikes okay :)

school sucks to the core today . you didnt come to school , no one to pei me . had RR . so bored man . luckily dheenan , yi ying , jing yu , ain and jacelyn was there . got people entertain :) slept the whole day . went mart at about 8 .

girl , i miss you for the whole day le . finally can meet you but quarreled . sorry for my attitudes and accusing you .

a second with you , my heart stop pumping . it hurts alot . who will understand how i am feeling right now . alone , all alone .

back to post ?
been a long time since i last post le ba . finally my internet is back and i shall post whenever i am free :) but also no one gonna come my blog de .

just came back from songka . so bored there , but must show respect . these few days been staying at simei . not gonna go down much so often le . slacking with a bunch of YPs there are really bored . doing nothing but just sitting down there and stare at others , finding problems ? they aint the bunch i gonna be with . with some BPC around too , making me feel disgrace knowing him . not gonna talk much about this anymore .

hi my dearest 28 . i am missing you so much right now . you are becoming from bad to worse le . every night hang out till so late then go home .always home later then me . why are you becoming so bad . you promise ah ma de things you never do . disappointed in you .

My heart aches when i talk to you .
My heart aches when i dont hear from you
My heart aches when i long for you .


You left me wondering around ,
No longer do I feel safe and sound .
Stumbling on your favorite red shirt ,
Cant keep in all of this hurt .
I loved you so damn much ,
That now I cry for your touch.
That no longer comes my way ,
No matter how much I beg and pray .
Into my bed I crawl alone ,
Just to smell your cologne .
It was a months ago since you said goodbye ,
But your smell still lingers by .
It fills my body with such distress ,
Turning me into a total mess .
You didnt think of what you would do to me ,
All you wanted was to be free .
So me being stupid I opened the door ,
I let you through and cried even more .
I closed it shut and heard you leave ,
Footstep heading away from me .
You say that we were not meant to be ,
How do you dare say that to me .
I hold my broken heart in my hand ,
Trying to keep it together the best I can .
But no matter how much glue I use ,
I still cry and feel abused .
For in this prison called my room ,
I keep memories of me and you .
They haunt me every second of the day ,
I just wish this pain would go away .
I gathered all your things today ,
Put them in a box and hid them away .
But I kept something to make me smile ,
I found it and took it from the pile .
A picture of you holding me ,
A memory of what we used to be .

28th love , no matter how long it take . how much i have to go through , how much pain it take . i will still be waiting for you . ba zhang love beebeemichelintayannching for life , for eternity and forever .